Wow, Challenge and a Blesssing!

Crazy how things work out... Was challenged on the way home about sitting infront of TV not doing anything for the Kingdom... Wanted to blog and just came on here and saw what somebody had written, was a blessing. Thank you, Steve for reminding me every little thing counts...

The Night Before Thanksgiving

The night before thanksgiving
And I'm here
The devil's been knocking
At my heart
Or has it been myself
Causing my pain
Wanting what I think looks like
What a man of 32 should have

Then, I think of the selfishness
That I have been portraying
Into the people I love the most
I get to the point of depression
I feel very heavy in spirit

Then, remember!
Tomorrow is Thanksgiving
My favorite day next to Resurrection Day
The prophet Isaiah screams to us

Put it on... Put it on... Put it on...

The garment of praise!!!
Please, oh God help me put it on


Psalm 6 - the Measage by Eugene Petersen

1-2 Please, God, no more yelling, no more trips to the woodshed.
Treat me nice for a change;
I'm so starved for affection.

2-3 Can't you see I'm black-and-blue,
beat up badly in bones and soul?
God, how long will it take
for you to let up?

4-5 Break in, God, and break up this fight;
if you love me at all, get me out of here.
I'm no good to you dead, am I?
I can't sing in your choir if I'm buried in some tomb!

6-7 I'm tired of all this—so tired. My bed
has been floating forty days and nights
On the flood of my tears.
My mattress is soaked, soggy with tears.
The sockets of my eyes are black holes;
nearly blind, I squint and grope.

I just read this tonight

Thank God this is in the Bible

David seems to know what

This horrible emmotions

I have been through

8-9 Get out of here, you Devil's crew: at last God has heard my sobs. My requests have all been granted, my prayers are answered.
10 Cowards, my enemies disappear. Disgraced, they turn tail and run.

Here is the praise
God has heard my growning
Praise God who alone knows
He has answered all of my prayers
My request have been granted
According to His will and pleasure!
The enemies of my souls that are all around
Have to flee
When we praise God
For actually lending His ear
To lowly sinners like us

My Selfish Year

Wow, even giving this post a name is humiliating but that is exactly what this year has been. I think I have hurt everybody I truly care about in the process of being the most anti Christ I have ever been. Just have been studying in Daniel about the end time antiChrist. That is where that came from.

Jesus Christ - the meaning of selfless living. I saw this came to life more vividly than I have in my life.

First, me, the anti of everything that is holy and right in my mind wanting what is not mine to have... Focusing on my pain and causing others pain.

Jesus Christ, saw people in their pain and willingly laid down His life to become a sacrifice for others...

I saw the Spirit of Christ at work in my mom this past Friday. She was in a situation that I know wasn't easy for her to be in but acted like Jesus... Thank you, Mom...

Uncle Johnny

Hardest Thing

Watching you writhe
Watching knowing I can't do what I would love to
And take away the pain
That has so ravaged your body.

Jesus please come to his room.
Just one touch of Your garment
Healed the woman who reached
Lord I'm reaching for You
Please let your garment touch his sick body

Johnny Owen
Tonight as I sit here and recall
The times I sat in amazement of your fingers
As you strum this instrument I have grown to love
The acustic guitar and then you used to pick up the banjo and wow!
What I would do to hear you do that again.

But no.
Even though you won't do that.
Those same fingers were the sign of peace and rest
When you squeezed them tightly
It was like u knew
I was there. I hope you did.

Johnny
I love you and pray
You know how much.
Sent via BlackBerry from T-Mobile

Sidetracked - Lifted by Strong Hands

I want to share with you where I have been in life... First, I need to say that I won't say too much but let's just say I have been in a war with my own heart. I'm not so stupid to think I am through with it but I want to explain where I have been. Gifts are from God and I have been told that I have the gift of writing... I just want to use it to glorify the One who created me. It reminds me of a Matt Redman song that goes like "I'm sorry Lord for the thing I've made it, when its all about You." It is talking about worship. Worship is the way we live... I am sorry for the way I have been living and am repenting and turning from the sin and turning, casting all my weight Jesus' Strong arms yo save me...

Just Read This from John Piper

Why should we bank our hope on the claim that the Christian Bible is a true revelation of God? My basic answer is that Jesus Christ-the center and sum of the Bible-has won my confidence by his authenticity and love and power. I see his authenticity and love in the record of his words and deeds, and I see his power especially in his resurrection from the dead.

Hanging with David in the Psalms

Psalm 51 (Amplified Bible)

To the Chief Musician. A Psalm of David; when Nathan the prophet came to him after he had sinned with Bathsheba.


1HAVE MERCY upon me, O God, according to Your steadfast love; according to the multitude of Your tender mercy and loving-kindness blot out my transgressions. 2Wash me thoroughly [and repeatedly] from my iniquity and guilt and cleanse me and make me wholly pure from my sin!
3For I am conscious of my transgressions and I acknowledge them; my sin is ever before me.
4Against You, You only, have I sinned and done that which is evil in Your sight, so that You are justified in Your sentence and faultless in Your judgment.(A)
5Behold, I was brought forth in [a state of] iniquity; my mother was sinful who conceived me [and I too am sinful].(B)
6Behold, You desire truth in the inner being; make me therefore to know wisdom in my inmost heart.
7Purify me with hyssop, and I shall be clean [ceremonially]; wash me, and I shall [in reality] be whiter than snow.
8Make me to hear joy and gladness and be satisfied; let the bones which You have broken rejoice.
9Hide Your face from my sins and blot out all my guilt and iniquities.
10Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right, persevering, and steadfast spirit within me.
11Cast me not away from Your presence and take not Your Holy Spirit from me.
12Restore to me the joy of Your salvation and uphold me with a willing spirit.
13Then will I teach transgressors Your ways, and sinners shall be converted and return to You.
14Deliver me from bloodguiltiness and death, O God, the God of my salvation, and my tongue shall sing aloud of Your righteousness (Your rightness and Your justice).
15O Lord, open my lips, and my mouth shall show forth Your praise.
16For You delight not in sacrifice, or else would I give it; You find no pleasure in burnt offering.(C)
17My sacrifice [the sacrifice acceptable] to God is a broken spirit; a broken and a contrite heart [broken down with sorrow for sin and humbly and thoroughly penitent], such, O God, You will not despise.
18Do good in Your good pleasure to Zion; rebuild the walls of Jerusalem.
19Then will You delight in the sacrifices of righteousness, justice, and right, with burnt offering and whole burnt offering; then bullocks will be offered upon Your altar.

Nobody Had Swagger Like Him

This morning I was reading from Max Lucado's book "He Chose the Nails." He brought up something I had never thought about before. These times in my life have been some of the hardest I have ever been personally through but the vision of power the Lord has helped me today. Sometimes you just need to come away from your problems and reconnect with your best Friend...

Noboday had Swagger Like Him

So about me
My life has been
About love, about what I have
Yet to experience
See all around
But the Conqueror
Has said, "NO!"

Nobody had swagger like Him
Jesus coming from the worst
The worst death of all
He conquered!
Because that is what the Conqueror does!
Imagine the look of
Almighty victory,
confidence,
Control
Nobody had swagger like Him!!!

Jokers can say what they want!
We tend to place hope in sand
This is not sand!!!
This is the Rock
That has withstood
All the storms of unbelief

Let's cling to Conqueror!!!!!

Writing from What is on My Mind - Free Writing

Please excuse the roughness of this but here it goes,

What do you want me to do
You say friends are
People who talk
Talk about their lives
You put up a wall
My walls are nonexistant
Though the walls between me and Him
Is coming down!

By His grace,
Even though,
Last night was disipation
Meaningless! Everything!
Except Him and what He moves!

So the wall
That I haven't
Put between you and I
Has to be built
My mind and heart and soul
Demand it!

My life demands it!
Putting everything that has
Been done behind,
Striving from this day
One month from Valentine's
To the goal that is ahead
Yearning to spend time with the other
Christ my Savior

The True

Him is what I seek.
Not disipation
Not you!

Jesus, let me yearn!!!

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A song by Shane Barnard

Holy design
This place in time
That I might seek your face, my God
My God

Lord I want to yearn for You
I want to burn with passion
Over You, and only You
Lord Ii want to yearn for You
I want to burn with passion
Over You, and only You
Lord I want to yearn

Your joy is mine
Yet why am i fine
With all my singing and bringing grain
In light of Him

Oh You give life and breath
In You we live and move
That's why I sing

A Little More Compassion

I don't want this blog to be over spiritual but at the same time I always want to point people to the amazing relationship they can have with Jesus Christ. I say all of that to say that I have a lot to say about stuff that might not be what you are used to hearing from me.

Life has alot of black and white areas. But then, it has a lot of grey areas, too. I have come to realize this over that last couple of months. I am going to deal with some issues in this that have been facing our country in the last couple of months and please know my heart on these thing. Sin is sin... We as the people of God have to be ever viligent to clean sin out of our lives. Not just clean but kill it. This is a lifetime thing. That is where time comes in... Time, is invented for us, the people of God, not those who we shout accusing words to who don't even know the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ.
All this to say, we, as the christian community, need to have a lot more compassion on those who are hurting by the choices they make. I have been in a battle over choosing my feelings or choosing God's way. Now, please know, I am talking about those people
who are under the direction of Holy Spirit and are wrestling with what they know is wrong, which is pretty much all of us. I just have gained a lot of compassion for the person with homosexual feelings and knows it wrong and still battles it. I hope this all makes sense...

What a Life...

Well, looking at my blog it has been so long since I have updated it... Sorry but life has been weird and haven't really known how to deal with stuff. Still don't but I do know our great Father, Spirit, and the Son are still in control no matter hoiw much I feel like I am out of it. I thank Him for His life through His body, the church. Praying for what to say next...