The Joy Which I have Lost is Found

In studying the Word today as Mom and I stayed home from church today, I found this verse and it was like hidden manna for my depressed soul. Sometimes, ok, most times for the last 8 months, I have felt the sickness of the soul's depression. I have come to the place where it is no longer possible to live in this world without doing what this blog has been changed to be named. Jesus is the source of pure joy... I knew this all a long but I have been trying to dig out for myself broken cisterns that hold no water. I will no longer do this. I will return to the fountain of living water which is The King of Heaven. The Bible says that the new testament church can claims all the promises of God... Here is one I have found today. I have put my name in it and challenge you to put your name if Jesus is your joy.

Isaiah 51:3

3For the LORD comforts Jonathan;
he comforts all his waste places
and makes his wilderness(Bank of America) like Eden (presence of God),
his desert like the garden of the LORD (the very place of salvation);
joy and gladness will be found in him,
thanksgiving and the voice of song.



All the promises that were made to Abraham are yes and amen to His Bride. God's Bride... Oh Jesus what have I done to the amazing pattern you have set. Forgive me my husband for I have sinned.

⁵I acknowledged my sin to you,
and I did not cover my iniquity;
I said, "I will confess my transgressions to the LORD,"
and you forgave the iniquity of my sin.
Selah

study on prayer

What are prayers to our Creator? I'm just thinking this today. Because I have been told that prayer doesn't amount to much if you don't really mean them. I think this is a misunderstanding of why we pray. I had been reading Revelation 5 today at work because there is no and I mean no work. Ha ha!! Anyway, John says that there are bowls full of incense which are in heaven. Somehow these are the prayes we pray! Amazing!

Back in Genesis, we see that prayer affects peoples lives very practically. In Genesis 30, we get a glimpse into a woman's heart that aches to have children. She cries out, "give me children or I die!" His ear is not far from the innermost groanings of our hearts. God understands that we don't know what we ask for. We might not ask for what is on His heart but thank and praise Him He hears our cry!

I Never Been Hated

I Never Been Hated

I can't get it
From ringing in my ears
I hate you Jon
I hate you Jon
Ringing in my ears
Driving me to tears
She yelled, screamed.
I deserved what she said
Feeling sick to the bones
Please help me God.
Help me to change.

The Cries I have Heard

I have heard three types of cries in the last in the last 24 hours. One, I caused by my own selfishness in wanting something that can never be and not caring that I hurt someone. The second was a cry from my little niece Stella... The third ones were the ones screaming from outer darkness. I was screamed at yesterday and really deserved to be but I fear I have made the screaming of people that might go to hell if I don't change... God help me!!!!!